Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

just straight forward stupid reality !

so went to Paris with the school and had a ball but not with the people i thought i would have a ball with. my world was shaken a little when i discovered some new paths which have now become best friends though those paths have always been there before and i had even looked at them before and although i had walked down them a little i had never stopped and properly looked at them looked at there shape or there paving that defined who they were ,what they had been through and what they believed in . I'm not saying now i know every little detail about them and I'm not saying i now have walked all over them ,, what I'm saying is that they have made me see things differently and have made me move on in good and kinda harsh ways .......... things have been different since Paris! i have changed my out look on life a lil , bu that's for another time .
on Monday kittykat , jeules ,  jreal, the bIZness , ms.cool , and codey came to my house which was a lil awkward at first but we all mellowed after a while :) especially between jreal texting other peoples mothers proclaiming her gay lovers name and kittykat getting it on with pieces of cucumber , and me well i got raped by a fire place because of jeules and codey .
relationship wise some parts of me think i did the right thing and then when i hear a song or see a picture i begin to question my decision but am reassured by friends especially an unexpected one that i made the right decision . so now here is a new question i gave my heart to someone for a year but now I'm not sure who owns it , some pieces of it are forever lost with people in good and bad ways . i think for a little while id just like to play with fire and be completely free of stuff like nonsense and immaturity unless its kittykat or ms.cool being immature cause its just hilarious if there the ones being immature in a good way . 
i think I've learned more since Paris than since September last year i think. i found or heard a quote which i have now realised is true   "everybody dies but not everybody lives"   . i think now with my new and some old friends I'm going to be one of the lucky people that lives , loves and laughs :)
p.s if any of the people in this blog think I'm making them out to be hero's and they think I'm bluffing , I'm not i am truly thank full for keeping me sane and helping me make choices and most importantly making me laugh ... x x
i'll blog again sooner than last time , bye for now :)

for someone who does say much i talk a lot of bull: the week and weekend that would not actually end ...

for someone who does say much i talk a lot of bull: the week and weekend that would not actually end ...: "How sad can you be when your actually wishing your weekend would actually end ! I just get rid of the worst flu of the century abo..."

Alexandra Burke - Broken Heels

the week and weekend that would not actually end !

How sad can you be when your actually wishing your weekend would actually end ! I just get rid of the worst flu of the century about two weeks ago and now I'm dying with a head cold ! last week I crashed the car into the house this happened cause I was trying to reverse but the car decided to go into first gear instead of reverse and i panicked and put my foot on the accelerator and then got grounded till i die by my mam but then I got the chance to be ungrounded if i agreed to sleep on her friends couch for the night .. . so of course I agreed so we go up to the friends and of course I go up with no make up on in a grotty old track suit and go in to find out she has two sons a 14 year old who said hi while his faced stayed glued the computer screen the other one who was 18 took one look at me and said right I'm going to bed , so I was standing there awkwardly thinking wtf am i supposed to do so i went over to the son on the computer and asked him how he was and he said he was trying to watch a film .So that was my social life for the weekend. the week before that i was trying to collect stuff for the school year book and was treated like a Nazi by some cause I asked them to do a Lil bit of work, other school issues was getting evil eyes from kitty Kat cause I sat in her seat in religion and received love notes from her forging other peoples signatures but that was just a little bit of fun :p kitty Kat doesn't realise how funny she actually and not only is she herself addictive but gets other people addicted to sites like icanhascheezburger . I was so honoured when jeules did an anime of me shes so good its unbelievable :) also this week the 1/2 with it 1/2 fake it  click have decided to treat anyone they don't deem cool , outrageous or powerful like dirt  , I'd say i don't care what they do but it s kinda cruel since they know that it will eventually all implode on them but sure that's their mess ! becx has to be on uppers and downers this week cause shes SO giggly its actually scary but we love her cause of that . We have a new member in the group well shew not exactly new but shes one of those people that (this is going to sound horrible but is true ) you never think much of positively or negatively but then stands out , i haven't made my mind up on whether shes a friend or a frenemy as shes a Lil different from everyone. 
on the bf situation i was so cruel unintentionally this week cause he got his haircut and I said he looked about 12 :O yeah and he didn't take that to well but karma got me cause i got my hair cut and all you notice about moi now is my big Lil round face, but sure fuck it at least it ' ll grow hopefully! 
Well i gtg try fix my hair and find a phsyco hen that becxs gave me :) here is some cheesy words to end with :
we are all believers of something , we are lovers and fighters  , peace seekers and yet strong warriors of our own destiny but most importantly we should always just be ourselves and we might always have strong heads but more importantly we should have strong hearts :) x
talk tomorrow ,
love ,
WW vs RB